I don’t need anyone to complete me anymore  I have found the path to loving your own self

and if I do love someone, it’s a priceless gift the lucky bearer can have.

Tried their Epic Salad and Blue Marlin.  I also tried their Epic burger before and it was good

Budget: 200-500 per meal per person

UPDATE at Sep 2011 I’m super fine na now.. not feeling depressed or sad or anything at all *whips hair* thanks to pole dancing

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So, I took an online quiz to see if I might be clinically depressed.  I scored a 65 and I was surprised myself.

am I just pms-ing again? I was fine yesterday.. but today, I just feel extremely low.  Is it just hormones and some weird body chemistry?

TBH, I don’t find meaning in life anymore.  I’m just living and I don’t want to commit suicide because that is my promise to the people who loves me.  I will endure all the pain for people I love, wag lang sila masaktan through my actions.  I don’t want to dissappoint them.

I don’t like this materialistic world anymore… There is too much pressure to succeed in career, to earn money, to stay pretty   I have been in many competitions in my life… games and in real life.  It started when parents compare me to children of their friends who are working for this multinational company earning millions now to classmates pressuring me to do stuff and to boyfriends who think I’m not working smart.

heck, it’s tiring!

I fully understand that I may feel like trash today but I know I have many skills that can help other people.  I feel inspired to spend my time helping others, but for now I just feel down. no appetite, my tummy is crunching. i’m thirsty, but i don’t want to drink water.  Do I want to feel pain? maybe… maybe pain is better than feeling nothing huh?

I’m not like this before. or not even yesterday I felt super fine.

IDK what triggered this. maybe realizing once again that I don’t have a job.  seeing friends moving on with their lives. me, i’m stuck in whatever this thing I’m at

I’m better than this…  I know I am… but please allow me to pour my emotions for now.

I was thinking of going back corporate, but if I do, I have to work abroad.  Working corporate is depressing here.

If I do find a job here in the Philippines, I want it to be something with a purpose.  I don’t care much about money.  I’d want to work for charities or other non-profit companies or social enterprises.  Anything that I will find some meaning on. and not just a 9-5 job I’d be depressed on

I’m scared.

I wish someone would just hold my hand right now and say to me that everything will be fine

Mmmhmmmm… I just ordered the champorado randomly at Tapa King because I was looking for some merienda before I go to my dance class

It’s actually pretty good. It’s not only covered in Cocoa but also white sweet milk. It’s good for breakfast, cold weather and sick people. It’s only 45 pesos!

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Yogato only for P 78
we also ordered beef tepanyaki, yagityori and gyudon rice topping

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Halo-Halo P85
Pancit Luglug Single P85
Sizzling Bulalo P230
Plain Rice P25
Lemonade P32

Assam Milk Tea only P50
Without Pearls P50

If you’re always craving for Hong Kong’s Milk Tea then this place is for you. It’s good enough too

Beef Chahan P78
Philadelphia Roll P 149
Strawberry Iced Tea Large P35
Dalandan Juice Reg P28
Miso Soup P25
Total 315

Cheap Fastfood but decent food I love their Philadelphia Cheeseroll which had salmon and cream cheese

Store we ate at is located at Robinson’s Place Ermita supermarket.

I know he loves me and I don’t need to ask him if he does.

People shouldn’t read this blog. It’s total nonsense!

Anyway, I just have to rant right now because I’m feeling lazy. Yes – LAZY! But, I am not lazy to write this blog post because it doesn’t take much effort and it’s total nonsense.

Oh, you’re still reading! Yaye Anyway, I’m ranting about how Lazy I am today.

It’s a holiday here in the Philippines because it’s out new President Benigno “Noy Noy” Aquino III’s Inauguration. We officially have a new President! Yaye! I covered this event by the way by Anchoring the special coverage of the Global News Network (GNN) earlier this morning. Let me tell you, I only slept for one hour! We came home super late last night because we watched the midnight screening of the movie “Eclipse.”. I don’t want to talk about that here.

As I was saying, what I want to rant about is work! As a full time blogger and internet marketing entrepreneur, I hold my time. I work whenever I want, wherever I want. But the thing is, I still have to work for it

I’m just bantering here lol. I have piles of work load that I need to accomplish too but the thing is, when I’m not in the mood for work, it would take me forever to finish what I’m doing. However, when I have my juices flowing on and I’m on work mode, I will accomplish a lot in a super fast an efficient manner.

I have been really busy the last four days an I really worked my brains out.

Tonight, I have tasks lined up. But m brain is all just souped up. So, therefore, this nonsense blog post shall end and I shall retire to sleep now

Good night netizens